LIFE

Sorry People's this one is a bit of a D&M

I have Had so Much going on my my life the past few weeks I feel that I have forgotten to

STOP

TAKE A DEEP BREATH

and Breath

not just a little breath ... but u know the ones that make U drink in the fresh air and all the good that's in it and when U breath out U breath out all the crap ...

Today something made me really stop and think

That we aren't all going to be around for ever

Some thing that's made me want to hold all the people that I have close to me in my heart so tight and I never wanna let go ..

It has made me think that we need to appreciate every second we have with each person we Love,
appreciate everything that is around Us
and everything we have

But Please Promise

when U tuck your kids in at night
HUG them hard kiss them loads and tell them how much U love them

Never ever let a day go Buy with out telling the people whom you Love that you love them

and try to enjoy all the Positives in your day

Cause U never know whats around the Crn

GUYS I lov U all ... BIG TIME

Bi yearly Phone Dilemma

WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL its come to that time of year

My contract is up and wellll I am itchin for a new phone... For no other reason other than cause I can.
so the choices I have ...

Well First Off
Do I?

What Phone company.... well let me see ... we have
Telstra
Optus
3
Voda Phone
and Virgin

Hmmm let me c... I have been with telstra twice, Optus at the moment Vodaphone was another one I have been with ages ago and same with virgin... So looks like 3 it is ..

Right Next choice Do I wanna go

Cappped Plan
Normal Phone Contract or
Pre Paid

Hmmm thinking Capped is the way to go as I am cutting off the phone in Koo York and will just keep my mobile me thinks

Right Now My HUGEEEEEEE choice I need to make
U see I have ALWAYS been a Nokia Girl ... I have strayed twice ... But always gone back to good old Nokia.
BUT
Having Said that
I am Very tempted by the coooool Motarola V3x... which comes in... Yeah baby ... HOT PINK
and is free on a $29 cap... I have used my friends Phone which is the same and I am ... LOVIN it sick. It feels like a real phone It has an MP3 player a nd did I tell U its PINK


Or another phone I reckon is a little cute is

Sony Ericsson Z610i Just cause its Pink

Or the Nokia 6280 which a few of the girls at work have and Lov...

OHHHHHHH what is a girl to do ..

I attempted to go phone shopping this morning but ... after walking around for 10 mins and starting to feel like I was gonna pass out I thought it was time to come home... and Proceeded to sleep for a few hours... the Idea of Being HOME sick is to be HOME I guess. The Advil wore off Just after I got to the shops suppose its My Body's Way of telling me I should have stayed in bed ... Serves me right doesn't it

SO peoples....
Advice Please

Rach

Todays Positives

this is gonna be short and sweet

What happened today .... OK

1. OHHHHHHHHHH PAM AND Jenni ... Found goooooooooooood Pizza..... actually fricken fantastic pizza... Better Than potato pizza ... From Tooradin... was Yummo sadly I was told the othere pizza was even better and got eaten before I got there ... But ... what I had was
sen fricken sational ...

2. Cuddling Midnight .... Soph's New Bunny... who was just all squishy and soft... and is sooooooo cute

3. I think a Hot shower after sitting in the car for ages on my way home . there was an accident on the Monash and I was stuck in traffic for ages... was good to get home ... :D :D:D


Mum and Dad are home tomorrow night ... they have been away 2 weeks....Man that's gone quick ... SO I get my camera back ... woo hoo

K night chickies I am off to grab some panadol and hit the sack ...
Lov ya's all

Rxoxox

Positive Thoughts

OK
I have just been reminded that I need to write may positive thoughts for the day ... well its sorta turning out to be week isn't it ..
Life has just been a little hectic I have hardly been online ... and my Lappy is off be fixed AGAIN .... yeah yeah I know .... (I might do this for the past week... not just today )


1..... Hmmm Making that call yet again about my group certificate.... I didn't get an answer But I left a message and I have been putting it off for a few weeks ... But hey I did it ...

2. Being able to be a part of Dylan's Fund raiser

3. Catching Up with Pam and Alex last night ... Was heaps of fun guys was ace to just sit and chat and play with Alex's New camera and lense... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I am needing on of those things ... RIGHT NOW ...

4. Catching Up with my cousin yesterday . I used to see her every week when I was working over the other side of town and Now I hardly ever see her... we chatted ON the phone for like an hour... I was balling when I hung up ... LMAO Daft Bugger ...

5. WOOO hoo Getting a medium sized Top ... (cause I have got no boobs... )

6. Post Card from Mum and dad... telling me they are having a Fantastic time ...

7. Singing in the car ... with the Music full blast with Kathy on Friday night ... man that was way cool.. and we both cant sing for shit which makes it even better... (she might disagree with me here )

8. Hearing all has been settled with Sues House... I know its been stressing her out

9. Actually having a really good day at work today ... woo hoo

10. Actually up dating my blog...

so there U go ... that should do for now ... will post again tomorrow

Lov ya's

Rxoxox

K how did I go

Well
I walked and and dragged my feet all around F/gate ... I cracked the biggest shit
I had Numerous text messages to my friend having a sooky la la about what I was doing ... then.. MY knight in shining armour turned up

JENNI ... I LOV YA BABE

there she was ... waiting for her daughter in front of the changing room when I walked out
I Poured it all out to Jen ... the fact I was nearly balling my eyes out in the it was so good to see her there

I had a big whinge about it all and she TOTALLY agree with me ... and the lack of being able to find anything decent it Normal size clothes ... let a lone larger sizes ..then she said to me
Go down to chain reaction and have a look there ... they go to a 24.....

so off I went ...
and ... I found 4 NICE tops... and I am sure I could have found some other stuff if I would have had the cash

I was so excited
was way cool
and U know what ... One of them was a Medium ... woooooo hooooo

thanks for all your comments .... makes me feel that's Its not just me.... and my attitude towards clothes shopping

rxoxox

Fat chick Shoppin

Right I have $100 for me to go and make My self look Half decent to be seen out in public next weekend
I am off to F/gate to go shopping for fat chick's clothes

Something which I DREAD,,,,
Last time I went shopping I had a Cool friend with me that Told me what she thought of what I was trying on ...
Now... Gotta do it on my own .. YUCK I HATE shopping for clothes. I mean seriously ...
Some of the clothes that are designed for bigger people are JUST horrible....
looking in Kmart the other day I cant imagine Myself wearing any of the clothes that are in there at the moment ... the same as target YUCK YUCK YUCK

Most of the new Summer range is all Singlet tops... I hate my arms and don't wanna be going flashing them off to the world ... Or Fricken Floarly tent sized fricken fugly dresses that would Suit my bloody great grandmother. EKKKKKK

Is it just me that looks at Shopping for larger people this way ???? Or do other people feel it aswell ?

Yuck makes Me depressed just thinking about it. Its Yuck isn't it ... Not only is our weight an issue But there is no mid ranged priced Nice looking clothes out there to make us feel half decent about the way we look.

Am I just looking in the wrong bloody places....

Kmart Target 16-26 Big city chick Nothing ... and Myer and My size and creeping up outta my price range... But still not alot there that turns me on either. I wonder if it just me not liking the fashions that are around at the moment.I dunno ?????????????????????

So I am off to Pack My hand bag and head to F/gate and c What goodies I can come Up with.

I will post when I am back to let ya know How I went


Please Post a comment I would Lov to know what everyone else thinks about this ... is it Just me and the way I perceive our clothing Industry or.... the clothing industry ???

Amazing People

OK... I need to share with U some amazing People I know and some other amazing people I met Yesterday ...
OK me being Me I need to give U a bit of back ground first.

I needed to Introduce you to one of the coolest people I know

Kathy Smith. This woman just totally Rocks. I am so lucky and blessed to have this chick in my life. She owns the store Remember When Scrapbooking and one of the thing she focus's on alot in her store is raising funds for Organisations and Schools. A few Months ago she asked me if I would help her with one of the Fundraisers she had been asked to attend with her store... And Me being me Jumped at the chance.

SO we have spent the past few weeks preparing Not only For This fundraiser (which I am gonna talk about in a sec)

But the Paperiffic Show Which we will be at next weekend

The Paper arts Festival (which Kathy will be at the Following weekend In Sydney)
And ... (if this woman Just do enough for the world ) While Kathy is Busy working away in Sydney ...

We will Be at the
VSG
VerySpecial Getaway. Where again Kathy Organizes this event and takes Her store to and donates any Profits to Very Special Kids

An AMAZING woman I tell U ... Lucky she has such a fantastic bunch of girls with the same values and focus as she does to help her with organising all of these event.

OK sorry Getting back on track here
So yesterday We packed up the truck and Headed Off To The Dylan Hartung Scrapbooking Crop.
AND BOY
I met some really amazing people. Have U got a spare 20 mins ... U have got to Watch this
Just a warning ... Get the Box of Kleenex.

This Little Boy Has the Most amazing Spirit He has Cancer and a type of cancer that Can Not be treated by any Dr's in Australia. So He and his Mum have had to head over to the New York Where they have been for nearly 2 years trying to Fight his cancer.
Yesterday was Organized By A Woman with a Dream ..... Who Knew Dylan and Wanted to do something to make a difference "Jody White" Yesterday with a Dream in her head and Love in her heart ... raised over $10,000 towards Helping Dylan with his treatment.

So far The Dylan Hartung Foundation has raised over 1 million dollars, But still they are Hundreds of thousands of dollars in dept.
http://www.dylanhartung.net//

So if U have a bit of time read through some of His Info... and if you want to Donate to Dylan's Fundraising Fund
http://www.dylanhartung.net/fundraising.html Details can be found here

SO In wrapping all this Up

Dylan ... I hope the funds from yesterday Helps... Even Just a Little

Jody .... wow ...Amazing woman .. Thanks for organizing this fantastic day and Putting so much into it

Kathy... Thanks for Asking me to help with this stuff... I felt Very Lucky to be able to be there yesterday. Was a Great day ...

Rxoxoxo

DAY 2....

OK ... I am kicking my self for starting this now Cause I have had a really BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD day ... But suppose this is the point .. To look at what is good in my day right ...

1. Phone call off a friend at work that I haven't seen for months .. Saying come and have lunch with me... OH was cool to catch up I haven't seen her for ages... VERY cool

2. an email off my friend Just COZ... amongst all the crap coming through my inbox a work .. was sorta like sun shining .. and totally made me smile

3. Greys anatomy is on tonight


I nearly lost it at work today ... Upset I mean ... But I know that its just not me under this pressure ... its so hard at the moment.. we seam to have had at least someone away every for the past few weeks... the other day we had 6 people away .. and It just gets to much ... not just for me but for all of us. But boy is it pressing all of our buttons at the moment ... OHH YES

so here's to a better day tomorrow
lets hope I can get some work done and not just fixing issues all the time

woo hooo gonna go and have a shower.. ready for greys on tonight

Lov ya's all
rxoxo

Positive thought for the day

OK I am on a mission to change my way of thinking
Y ? This is my blog right??? My online diary .. so sorry if any of U find this boring ... But I wanna keep a journal of at least 3 things that has made me happy each day
I have Been reading Clean and simple 2 book By Cathy z... and that is something that she has done in there so I thought I would do it on here
so for today ... what are 3 things so far that have made me happy?

1. Walking around the market By my self and watching the way different people interact with each other. seeing all the new in seasons fresh fruit and veggies, and all the yummy country home made foods around

2. Cheering my grandma Up after hearing of the death of my uncle.

3. having Robbie Williams on the surround sound in the lounge and His YUMMY face on the HUGE screen... WOOF that boy really does it for me

SO what are the 3 things that made U happy ... I challenge any one who reads this ... to complete this every day. I have had 2 man bad days lately and time I looked at all the good stuff .. SO come on join in

rach xoxoxo

DR phobia

I have a Dr phobia

I absolutely despise going to the Dr's
dunno why its just one of those things I hate doing

I have been thinking for a while I needed to go. Ya know Just to have a check up and get a few things sorted but its Just something I have been Putting off for a LONG time.
If I am sick I will go to one of those Dr's that will give U a prescription really with no questions asked and send U on your merry way and really(although I know that its not the best thing for my own health) it suited me just fine thanks......

I swear I have the bestest most wonderfullest friends in the whole wide world. I know how much they care about me and my well being. Well 2 of them have been bragging about this fantastic Dr they have been seeing and How much I would love her and should go and see her... And me doing the usual me thing I do
Just sorta agreed with them and tried as hard as I could to avoid the conversation.
Until I got a phone call off my friend say well here is your appointment ... U are going ... LMAO Did I have a choice ???? UMMMM NO i dont think so

Well I did go
and YEAH well I would hate to say it But they were right
I went
and she was fantastic
She sat and listened
we talked
she didn't make me feel how other drs have
she was extremely thorough
it wasn't rushed ( my appointment was at 4:45 and I got outta there at 6:15)
and we worked through each of the issues I had
I felt comfortable and safe and that I was not being Judged
she really was fantastic
Just like they said she would be


There's NOTHING wrong I just felt like i needed a check up.
I believe that everyone should have a Dr they feel comfortable with I would just never do it for myself

U know what the DR said to me .... "you know you have a fantastic group of friends " I said to her I know I do ... how lucky am I ???? she said Very Lucky... they are Fantastic Ladies and they love U heaps ...:D :D :D I know ... they rock don't they


I would love to tell U all who she is so U can all go ... But I have been made to promise not to tell anyone ... cause then we will never be able to make an appointment.. LMAO

girls... thanx.... xoxooxox

ASSHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLES

Bastards absolute bastards
Ya know my friends Lyn and James
well Last Friday morning some Pricks robbed their office

Can U believe what some people will do
Its Just so unfair that people think its OK to do this shit to other people

the ass Hoooooles took Lyn's laptop with all her photos on it and videos of Kiana and I thinks that's what they are the most upset about, they took other stuff But the photos I think is what hurts the most.

So just a warning to U all back up and send ya pics off to a friends place to look after .. cause U never KNOW

Luckily Wendy and I had loads of pics that Lyn has lost ... but still

ITS just not right is it !!!!

SHHH dont tell

Hey
we finally have adsl back wooo hooo
But U know ... knowing me there would be some dramas involed somwhere
he he he he
well
GUESS WHAT ????
no laptop
Yep again My laptop is broken ...
so the point of this post????
well Mum and Dad are in New Zealand and ... well
I just sorta Just a little bit borrowed mums lappy so I can now go back to lying in bed or on the couch and surfing the net
woo hoo


But shhhh dont tell her
LMAO

Just one of them days

I can help it... It just one of them days
I am really sad ... everything is making me burst into tears
I was balling before I left for work
Had a really bad day at work
came home grumpy
and pretty much balled my eyes out for an hour when I got home
I know this will pass but I am just feeling sad and sorry for my self
feel like I am crap at everything and no good to any one not only am I an embaresment to my self but everyone around me aswell.
I know everyone has times where they feel like this... and yeah well today is my turn
I wanna crawl into my box and hide for a bit
just until i get over all the crazy shit that seams to be going on in my head at the moment.

Hopefully tommorrow is a brighter and sunny day in my world and I will be the happy me again

but for today I am just gonna me a grumpy bum

(god do I sound Hormonal Oh what ) geez... LMAO

Thanks for listening
I am taking my grumpy ass off to bed
Night all
rxoxox

yeah Dial Up

Yeah well I have dial up tonight
Dad set it up for me last night
Thank good ness I have Internet back .. even if it is dial up
I cracked the biggest POOPS with the lady on the phone tonight
Which yeah well I dont think is gonna help to much with the adsl getting conected
OH well at least I have dial up

NO email But I have internet access..

R

quick post

Just leaving work

Dad has Just called the interent company
Still no fricken goddam internet
MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN I am pissed off

so waiting
waiting waiting

See U all soon

rxoxox